Clare's

Unrealistic

2010-07-01T19:25:00.004+08:00

I am not thinking much & I will try my best not to think too much. But sometimes I just feel so useless. I really don't wish to say my feelings but this is some what the only place that I can really vent out all my frustrations. Just let go & forgive.

Many words have hurt me but never as powerful as those words you have said. Sometimes, the words you use on me have left me speechless so many times. Yet, knowing myself, I tend not to clarify & expect to forget about the matter. But I know that I am just making myself more miserable especially when I think about it. I'm sure you know my personality. I will not pick on things, neither do I like to make things difficult for anyone. So I tend to avoid topics & pretend that everyting is fine. & everyone will be happy.

I guess I am someone who will be happy when I see everyone around me happy. That's just me. & I won't change that fact. But I guess, sometimes when it reaches my limit, I tend to just keep quiet & reflect on what has happened to me lately. & it always ends up in a way that I will vent all my frustrations on you. Which then makes me feel so useless. I always question myself. Why can't I just do something for once to make you happy?

I'm disappointed in myself, that I can never treat you how you expect the way you want to be treated. & I will never know what you want. Yes, you are right. I am fickle minded & I tend to live in my own world. Whatever you say is true. & thats why I have learnt never to talk back to you when we quarrelled ever since I knew you. Because, to me, my words are just non-realistic words.

& if you see this. Don't get angry. I have no intention of pushing all the blame on you. Because this post is about me being unhappy with myself. & thats all. Lastly, I truely apologise.

You're 19. I'm 18

2010-06-27T15:24:00.009+08:00

25 June 2010. BF's 19th birthday. & yet I was unable to celebrate with him due to school commitments. Adding on, he was sick. Poor boy. But at least he managed to celebrate on 26th June!

I would also like to thank all his friends for taking the effort to come~! Amanda, Joan, Hsinrui, Shaoyu, Eugene, Damon, JJ, Michelle, Ruben, Mcenroe (& 2 of his other friends whose name i kind of forgot =x), Aileen, Galvin, JiaJia, Teck Kim, Jerome, Eleanor, Lindy, Ben and Carlos. Though some were unable to come but thanks for all the effort you all did such as finding the time to write the small tiny card. I'm sure all your efforts and time came into good use! Because your presense have made the party awesome!

Although he found out about my surprise. TSK. Such a failure. NVM! Next year will be better HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY BF! <3

& LASTLY, Thank you all who came :)

Just 3 more days!

2010-06-22T21:43:00.003+08:00

Life's good! Things are going just so smoothly. No drama. & I hope no drama so soon either! We will be getting our First TEP stopover results in like 2 weeks time! ZOMG. SO FAST! & currently I am in ELDC dying. LITERALLY. But I am taught how to photoshop! Which is really awesome. Because last time the photoshop I knew was to only remove eyebags and pimples. LOL! Bimbo much? IKR!

In just 3 more days its Boyfriend's birthday! I'm eggcited! Cos he is finally 19. Which means he is older than me. HAHAHAHAHA! & just 3 days ago, it was our 3rd month. So... HAPPY 3RD MONTH! <3>

I'm frigging bored. Seriously. The weather is screwed and my head is throbbing. But I still found this nice song sang by jojo! Do listen! Its awesome!

JoJo - Numbers

Updates!

2010-06-19T12:29:00.004+08:00

Its been ages since I've logged into blogger. & just yesterday was the end of my 9 weeks of attachment in BSC. God. & I am already missing those BSC days! Where we spend most of the time having fun & laughing at each other.

Anyway, the next 9 weeks will be dedicated to ELDC! Half shift. tsk! Not really looking forward to anything because the next few weeks, wait, make it months are gonna be busy busy! With lunchtime concert coming up and after that YOG thing. GAH.

Whatever it is. Poly life is sure busy! =] & seriously. One more thing. I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT. BADLY. God, can I have the motivation to lose weight from back then? tsk!

& I want to go shopping. Alright, I guess I am starting to blabber my cravings. But I want a charles and keith shoe. LIKE REALLY WANT IT. But I feel so lazy to even step out of the house. TSK!

toodles! =]

Blackberry Addict

2010-06-10T19:43:00.001+08:00

Unfortunately, my pinkberry died on me after it tragically flew out of my hands yesterday! & so. I finally felt how dependant I am on a Blackberry! & so I rushed down to the nearest Starhub shop & finally am glad and happy to announce that I got my NEW BLACKBERRY! <3

Which also means that I have to start learning to be demure and gentle. Or I swear this blackberry is gonna last for another 2 months before it dies on me!

Anyway, I know my life has been so mundane because I am hardly even updating my blog! But I bet its gonna get very interesting real soon! But sorry dears! I can only update you all the good news next month! If I am not wrong! But I really can't wait to share this awesome news with you readers!

Moving on! Its the second last week of full shift attachment! & I am still enjoying my attachment days! Gonna miss all the fun we had! <3>

Finally done with all my reports & projects! Dance practices are starting to get tiring again! As we start getting busy! Looks like round 2 of tedious training is gonna start soon! But I am glad to say that I enjoy every single moment I spend on the dance floor with my dancemates <3

Selfish?

2010-06-06T21:02:00.002+08:00

Seriously. Before anyone uses this "oh-so-hurting" word = SELFISH. Let me just emphasize something. It takes one to know one. Before you even say that someone is selfish. Reflect on your own actions before you even say a thing. You are not so great after all you know? If you are lazy and insensitive to the people around you. You have no right to insult your friends or aquaintances. Because at the rate you are going. Seriously, you are not even going to end up with an aquaintance.

Many a times, I always question myself why do I still have to take in all your rubbish. Why do I have to give in to you time and again for 1 year. Then I ask myself. If I hate you so much, what good would it do to me? Nothing. & now do you understand why I do not hold any faults with others. Because I do not want to become like you. Hated and detested by many. It already shows that you yourself have so much hatred inside you that you all just a selfish self centered bitch.

I seriously advice you to change your stinking attitude or even I will blow my top one day. I help people. & I do everything for a reason. I have known you long ebough to know that you plagarize work. So do you think I will still show you my work? Of cos NOT. You are just causing trouble for yourself if you continue your life this way. But seriously, I do not and never want to interfere in your life because I rather not mix with bitches like you.

You explain the definition of Bitch you know? A self centered bitch. So please look at yourself first before you judge others. Be realistic alright? Accept this fact.
YOU HAVE AN UGLY PERSONALITY.

2010-05-28T23:54:00.005+08:00

SUCH A HORRIBLE WEATHER & NEITHER IS MY COUGH NOR FLU GETTING ANY NICER! But the photos with my husband are definitely getting nicer! Here are some pictures of us on a super hot humid day!

Happy Birthday Aaron!

2010-05-24T20:51:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Aaron! Finally 19! But still bully me & make me do "bo peep" dance during attachment everyday! HAHAHA!

& his very very special present from the HumanLink group! =] HAHAHA! Hope you like it Aaron!

Anyway, Life is kind of back on track. No more late night practices in school, no more continuous dance trainings! But if I am not wrong Lunchtime concert is coming up! SO EGGCITING! =] hahahaha! Can't wait for a new chereography by Ms ong! & the fun tinmes with the DC girls again! Looking forward to this Wednesday's practice! <3

Reports are currently piling up. With personal selling, resumes and auditing reports to complete. My life is not what you can say "it's fantastic". Reports after reports! I seriously need to take leave soon and get a good facial with my GFs!

Currently sick yet again. Horrible cough. & the worse thing is, I can't stop couginh =\. Pisses me off to keep coughing like this. UGH! Someone out there. Can you please kill my throat for me please? =]

A fairytale of our own

2010-05-22T22:02:00.008+08:00

It has been about 5 days since I last blogged due to my intensive or lets say, super intensive week. Graduation performance. I shall not further elaborate because I believe a picture tells a thousand words =]

Thank you to all Graduation performers and our "nannies" for making everything so successful! I hope to ctach with all of you again! <3

First passenger

2010-05-15T20:24:00.007+08:00

IKR. It has been officially 10 days since I blogged. But I have been having dance everyday till 11pm. & thats not only it. Attachment as well! Everyday I drag my feet out of bed at 6am, attachement starts at 9am, ends at 6pm. Dance starts at 6pm which means I skip dinner & dance till 11pm. Reach home by 12am. Sleep at 1am. & the cycle repeats itself. & I have been doing this for 3 weeks already. Tomorrow will be the last practice before we take the stage!

Really dead tired. & I am sure all the dancers are just as dead as I am! But looking on the bright side. We have PRETTAYYYEEE costumes! & its all in pastel colours! Makes me so happy thinking about it! HAHAHAHA! Anyway, the performance is just next week! From 17th May to 21st May. I'm definitely sure our hard work will pay off! Can't wait to perform!

Moving on, today I went out with husband! Eventhough I am tired as hell. I will never reject my husband! & I am her first passenger ever since she got her driving license. BTW, she is really good in driving! & damn daring! LOL! She drove us to Siglap for dinner! & we had dinner at Cafe cartel! Here are some pictures! Just take not. I wont be uploading my photos because I look too tired! HAHAHA.

I am my husband's FIRST PASSENGER! <3>

She got kinda fed-up while doing parallel parking. Damn epic! HAHAHAHAHA

But the sense of satisfaction, undescribable!

Sweet

2010-05-06T20:46:00.003+08:00

Knowing that I am sick. BF came to my house to pass me a bouquet of roses! so sweet!

sick

2010-05-06T16:32:00.005+08:00

Suffering from a major high fever! & thank you to all my friends who took care of me! Really love you all! Especially Lulu! Thank you so much lulu for the listening ear!

Thank you Bai, for the comforting hug.
Thank you Cass & Xuanren, for your words of concern!
Thank you Eileen, for taking care of me for that short period of time
Thank you Hsinrui for smsing me and asking me to rest more so that tomorrow I will be more energetic!
Thank you Clarence, for sending me home all the way =]

I sorry to trouble you guys so much! I am feeling much better so I will definitely be back for dance tomorrow!

I miss going back for attachment. Because attachment is for me to play & have fun with my friends. Even though I am loaded with a pile of work! HAHAHA! =]

Can I just go back for dance? because i am bored shitless just staying at home.

Giving our wallet a hard time is our hobby

2010-05-01T22:42:00.002+08:00

A shopping day with husband today! & as usual, SPEND! I feel so darn guilty but nevermind. I should reward myself for all the hardwork I did for the past 1 week.

So its 1 week down & 3 more weeks of hardcore dance practices and attachment to go! LOL! Oh god. I feel so tired and the worse thing is, next sunday, I have to go for work! =[ How am I gonna last? I dount I can. So not looking forward to that day!

Anyway, I feel so awfully guilty today because I spent so much! Bought a Longchamp cream colour bag, 1 top, 2 shorts, 2 sets of earrings, 2 bangles and a ring. OMG! Can die. WHAT TO DO? HAHAHA!

& amander & I were just planning to get a coach wristlet together so that we can go out with it next time! So awesome!

I feel like I am drowning in tiredness but shall not sleep so soon because I feel that the food I ate today needs a longer time digesting!~ =]

& before I forget, Thank you Amander, Hsinrui, Cass, Bai, Michelle Ong & Michelle Chng forf listening to my problems! Really thank youuuuu so so much! =] I am sure there are much more dramas to come! & before I forget, thank you stannly for your help too! =]

Feeling the Love

2010-04-29T22:53:00.002+08:00

Apologies for such an emotional post yesterday. But I was really upset with some personal problems which is currently in the rubbish bin right now. So moving on with life!

As you all know, Husband's birthday was just 6 days ago! & I was unable to blog much due to my hectic attachment schedule followed by dance practices everyday. Yes, everyday! So I met Husband on a Sunday to pass her her gift which was a photo of us together pieced up into a jigsaw piece and a Burberry perfume which I think is damn nice la! Should have gotten one for myself. Kinda regretted it! HAHAHAHA.

Anyway, today Husband knew I was upset & she came all the way to my attachment place to pass me a box of chocolates! So sweet of her can! Totally love her ttm because she is such an awesome person! Love her ttm! HAHAHAHA! So thank you husband so much & sorry to make you come such a long way! LOVE YOU ALOT!

Secondly, I would like to thank Lulu for your words of advice and knowledge, for Amanda, Eileen and BF never ending care and concern and lastly for LP's LOVE! HAHAHAHA! Really love you people alot! <3>

Well, I guess that sums it all because I am tired! Tomorrow is Friday & I am soooo looking forward to it!

2010-04-29T00:15:00.000+08:00

I did something so unforgivable & I will never forgive myself. I do not even know how to face anyone because I started everything. I cannot stop the tears because it hurts so bad. I feel so tired but I dont want to sleep because I feel that I deserve to be punished. I feel so tired that attachment is everyday and I have 2 projects in hand every week.

But nothing means anything now because I hurt my friend real badly. & she just kept quiet till I pushed her limit. I do not think she will be reading this & so I can blog about it. I feel so so useless & I must really learn how to change my personality. I hate hurting people & thats why whenever people make me upset I will just keep quiet. I will accept what they are conveying to me & try not to get hurt in the same way as they have hurt me before. I feel so upset I cannot even bring mself to blog anymore,

2010-04-24T14:30:00.002+08:00

CLUBCRAWL 2010 - Dance Company

The bonds between us are held onto ever so tight for we know that once a relationship is strengthened, we will never let it go. The moment we took the responsibility to do a dance well, we all took up every responsibility to promote DC. A memory that will follow me for a Life time.

Happy Birthday Amander Husband!

2010-04-24T12:43:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDER HUSBAND!

Finally 19 & not forgetting she finally passes her driving test! So right now, she can drive me to school because waking up at 6am everyday is no fun!

& not forgetting Hotstuff too! Who also passed her driving test! Congratulations to both of you dears! Super happy for you! I really wanna go out and celebrate with you girls but I think I know just what you are up to right now. LOL!

Flu and cough, welcome back to my life. Because with attachment & intensive dance trainings, you are gonna be an awesome companion. LOL! GOD. I feel like my nose is about to drop! HAHAHAHA! Alright. Blame it on my super poor immune system! HAHAHA!

I'm tired. & currently I really need a listening ear. But I don't know who to look for becauese most of them are busy. I think I should just return to my slumber.

Updates on photos

2010-04-24T01:14:00.004+08:00

Hey peeps!

IKR! I have been blogging words after words after words & so today I shall make it a special! Photos day! Since the photos are already up on Facebook too! =]

Faizah's Birthday & my new found friends!

& also not forgetting the dancers of DC! We all were celebratinbg Xuanren's 20th Birthday!

& here comes the intensive dance trainings!

2010-04-22T20:46:00.005+08:00

Clubcrawl has finally ended. Unfortunately, I am soooo lazy to take photos and thus the rest of the photos are with the other dancers. So please do wait for them to upload!

Anyway, this year's clubcrawl experience to me was definitely a memorable one. BECAUSE, just 3 weeks befroe clubcrawl, Ms ong had to choreograph a new dance due to the theme name, "happiness" & we had intensive dance trainings like for 5 days in a week. IKR. Damn tiring! & after 3 weeks, we finally bore the fruits of out labour! Many people actually appreciated the dance! LIKE SERIOUSLY. They liked it! <3>

Also, I want to thank BF for helping me out so much during the clubcrawl especially when DC was sorta in a difficult position & situation. Not forgetting my attachment HumanLink team mates who took over my duty while I was away! Really thank you guys very much!

Though Clubcrawl is over, looks like Graduation is the next up and coming event! SOOO. Another 3 more week of intensive dance trainings before we go on stage from 17th May till 21st May! I am so HOPING to loose that bit of weight. UGH! So tired, i think I will just turn in for the night =]

Overuse of energy causes over hyper-ness

2010-04-21T23:52:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XUANREN LOVEEEE!

OMG. Overly exhausted ttm. But who am I to complain when everyone is equally exhausted? HAHA! Day 1 of club crawl was fun & the mood set was just awesome. "Happiness", what does it mean to you?

Just a simple word sets everyones' mind running on a track just like a train. Causing people to reach beyond the limits of their creativity. NYP flash mob was awesome and so was every performance the CCA groups have put up! But not forgetting DC. WE GIRLS DID AWESOMEEE & I TOTALLY FRIGGING LOVE THE ENERGY WE HAD WHILE PERFORMING! 100 THUMBS UP! LOVE IT! & I am definitely sure tomorrow will be just as good or even better! With our DC bimbo spirit!~ YAYYYY!~ HAHAHA!

Putting the "happiness" aside. When TEP & dance clashes, it becomes like a natural disaster. Because its so frigging stressful when you have to meet a person's expectations & especially when you are actually graded for it! I can feel the tension arising & its not a nice one. Because my group & I have a project due practically every week. 2 WORDS = GOOD GAME.

I will be waking up at 6am once again & this ain't gonna stop for another 9 more weeks. AMEN.
Last day of club crawl tomorrow before intensive dance trainings start for Graduation 2010!

Attachment starts!

2010-04-19T20:30:00.009+08:00

Aching legs, Blistered feet, Tired eyes.
overworked.
That is what attachment does to you. So darn tiring! & adding on to whatever stress I have is dance. Major dance practices are coming up since we have a graduation performance in 5 weeks time!

I think my schedule is more packed compares to the president! LOL!

20 April - Attachment / Booth Set-up / Dance [830am - 10pm]
21 April - Attachment / Clubcrawl / Attachment talk / Party Celebration [830am - 10pm]
22 April - Attachment / Clubcrawl [830am - 7pm]
23 April - Attachment / Personal Selling talk / Dance [830am - 10pm]

In 4 days, never am I gonna reach home before 6pm. I think I can just stay in NYP. LOL! HAHAHAHA!

I'm tired & I have so many things to do. Say "hello" to stress & "goodbye" to life, Clare! Not only that, I have to find 300 new members to join NYP HumanLink.

Well, let me explain to you all more about HumanLink.

I am currently attached to Nyp HumanLink. This is part of my attachment. It is comewhat like a form of a job agency. Currently I am required to recruit new members into NYP HumanLink membership. This membership entitles ALL NYP students who are looking for a job. Be it part-time,full-time or temporary jobs. HumanLink is here to help you look for one. A perfect example, Let's say you are looking for a job during the school holidays, just come to HumanLink which is located at Business Block B410 or just ring me up to make an appointment! Not to fret, if you were to sign up, we will not contact you unless you enquire about our services first! So if you are interested, do drop me a comment or give me a call!

Thank you so much!

Alright! This is a brief overview! So if you are interested, just ring me up!

Stressed, is the word

2010-04-16T21:07:00.002+08:00

Oh god. It is barely the start of attachment & I am already frigging out just seeing my daily workload. Wait. It is not even barely the start of attachment. In the first place, these 2 days were just my attachment orientation period. FML.

I have datelines to meet, recruiting new members, setting up interview dates, picking up of calls & knowing what to say, REPORTS. OMFG. I want to die. It is super Freaky la. & not forgetting the piles of projects piled on top of my 6 other group members & I. Planing of events, don't talk about sparing me the agony because I am already dying in agony. H-E-L-P. Literally.

Seems like HR is not an easy job & I really do hope this TEP thing pays off! Looks like I will not be posted to MSC either! hahaha! So good news is, no stock taking! Bad news is, I will be sitting down till my butt expands by 100 inches. Alright.

Clubcrawl is next week! OMO. Performance is coming! I hope this time DC can shine because the dance that we will be performing is super niceeee! Reallyyyy. SUMPA GUARANTEE CHOP WITH PRESIDENT SIGNATURE! So please do come support alright? =]

Dance trainings are tripled up because graduation is in 5 weeks time! Stress is piling on & I do not wish to get sick. But I already feel sick. LOL! YAY! Dance will be tomorrow & currently I am so dead tired because I had 3 hours of sleep for 2 consecutive days. I think I am going to "toh" even when I am sitting on the toilet bowl!

TEP?!

2010-04-15T23:48:00.002+08:00

OH GOD! TEP? HUMANLINK
Wake up at 630am everyday?
Admin work?
AWESOME WORKING HOURS FROM 9AM TO 530PM
Follwed by dance till 10pm.

SAVE ME!!
More updates when i am FREE!

Don't Walk Away From Me, Please

2010-04-13T23:26:00.002+08:00

This post does not & will never pintpoint to anyone. Thus, its a general post where you can disagree or agree.

Someone will always end up walking away whenever there is a quarrel. So, FYI for people who always walk away from problems or your partner, LET ME TELL YOU THIS. Face reality. Stop thinking that by walking away you can let your partner calm down or what-so-ever. Because, trust me, this will further aggreviate the relationship with your partner. If you care about your partner then let her/him know what is going on instead of walking away to stone.

Seriously, by walking away from the problems, also shows the level of maturity you potray. No one likes to be given up on. & walking away shows how easily you can let someone go. If you want to bring your partner happiness, then prove it through actions & words. & not walk away. I am not saying that walking away means being a coward so do not misunderstand. What I am trying to prove is that walking away DOES NOT solve & will never solve any of your problems.

So think about it. What happens if your partner walks away from you in a quarrel. How will you feel? Not important? He/She has given up on you? Well, to me, it seems like it. But I guess everything will lie in your own perception.

Dilema Much?

2010-04-12T16:50:00.006+08:00

It was'nt easy to start with. & I being senseless & stupid, spoiled everything.
I never knew it would be so difficult. But at least I tried.

Is this choice right? Sometimes I feel like I am someone extra. Which is sooo sooo tough not to think about. Because its true! Truth hurts. It really does.

If this were to continue, what would happen? Everyone is tired. & every problem that is thrown to me right now, I would just chuck it one side pretending that it never even occured to me before. In one way or another, I may sound irresponsible.

Running away from reality seems like the easiest way out but facing the problem shows signs of maturity.

I always thought that I could solve everything myself. Independent much? I dont think so! Not anymore! I'm tired. Emotionally & this makes me tired, physically. THAT"S JUST AWESOME.

One problem leads to another. I am not saying that it will never be solved. It will! But how long will this take? Maybe after I loose what I have will I know how to appreciate it. Maybe? But usually, this is what always happens.

Loosing a friend during this period was tough. Not literally loosing but we were once close. That is all. I really do hope that all will be fine once again! Where I thought that our friendship was inevitable. It takes alot of effort. But it's worth every minute.

Assumptions are plain hurtful. So do not assume anything. Just ask, & it won't hurt. Okay. Maybe it will hurt a little less. So do not assume & face the music alone. If you have any questions to ask me. CALL ME. DO NOT ASSUME. Seriously. Or else I will be given BIGGER shyt to clean. & FYI, I think I have enough shyt to clean already so dont add on.

Amander's Pre Birthday Celebration

2010-04-11T23:59:00.009+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BAI!

I'm sorry for not being able to celebrate with you today! I will celebrate with you once Cass comes back alright! Which is in 1 day time! EGGCITING!

Anyway, today we had a pre birthday celebration for my husband! Because, once school start, we will be so busy & I doubt that I will any time to plan for her! So here are the pictures!

Met stannly at 11.45am SHARP. Because that ASSHOLE rush me. Expecting me to collect the cake from Bugis when I clearly left house at 11am. But with my awesome time management. I met Stannly Tan at 11.39am. HAHAHA! Went to settle the decorations for Amanda's pre birthday celebration and then off to COACH to see what Stannly could get for her! & we finally decided on a wristlet. After visiting Kate spade & agnes b. Stannly! next time get her Hermes LA! HAHAHAHA!

Following that we went "teo heng" for K! & it has been ages since the 3 of us sang la! hahahaha! Miss those times when we had our showdown for the song "yang cong" HAHAHA! Lets have a showdown once again please! Craving for it! hahaha! However due to some problems, Amanda had to leave earlier to meet her friend! But we managed to meet her again for dinner at "Shokudo"! & not forgetting Amanda's all pink birthday party again! 3 years in a row. It has been the pink theme! I swear next year it will bve a different colour okay! HAHAHAHA!

Yupp! & this is Amanda's Prettayyeeee Princess balloon. LOL! The price of the balloon, I shall not reveal. LOL! HAHAHAHAHA!

& also, I have to thank Stannly, Kaisin, Gloria, Gracia, Xinyi & Lidia for making this party possible! Thanks for taking time to attend Amanda's pre birthday celebration! Hope you all enjoyed yourself! HAHAHA! & thanks Stannly for helping me on ALOT of things! HAHAHA!

Well! I guess this marks the end of the post! Because there are too many photos & I am oh-so-lazy to upload. & DAMMIT. I swear I need to go on a diet. Not "I WANT TO" any longer but its is a necessity!

Anyway, HUSBAND! Hope you enjoyed your time alright! =]

With much Love!

School is my new shopping mall

2010-04-10T22:22:00.003+08:00

OH GOD. Why must everyone's Birthday fall in April & May. I am on a diet & yet I am eating like a frigging pig. This is sooooo depressing! HAHA! But oh wells!

Anyway! do any of you have any recommended nice english songs because I am really deprived from english songs ever since my computer crashed.

Next week will be a super hectic week for me! Because I will be back in school 5 out of 7 days! & making it worse is that next week is the last week of our holidays before my attachment starts!

12/4 - FREE!
13/4 - Dance
14/4 - Dance
15/4 - Dance & Attachment orientation
16/4 - Attachment Orientation
17/4 - Dance
18/4 - RELAX

& after that school officially begins. Life is GAHHH. Because I cannot even enjoy my last week of holidays! In just 2 weeks time it will be time for our clubcrawl which also means getting ready for performance! So eggciting.

I apologise for a boring post because right now, I feel so tired that I cannot be bothered to make this interesting. Justg for the time being. Wait till I find my new target to insult then I will start k? HAHAHAHA!

I am feeling damn guilty because I just had buffet in celebration for my grandma's birthday. I swear I will be going on a week's diet. SUMPA!

Personality LOCKDOWN

2010-04-08T15:18:00.004+08:00

I shall now go on a personlity lockdown.
Quarrels will be the past.
I will just let it be.
No comments, nothing.
I have nothing to say.
I give up.
Really, I do.
I am at fault.
& so,
I promise to be good & nothing more.

From now,
I promise to just listen but don't comment.
I guess this will make every unhappy thing come to a halt right?
If it does, I will willingly take a step back.

Random

2010-04-08T02:59:00.005+08:00

Alright. Its not that I am unable to sleep but right now, its either my weak, oh so weak stomach is reacting on me or I am having food poisoning. It hurts so bad that I feel like popping a pandol into my mouth at this moment.

Unfortunately, I am allergic to panadol. As ironic as this may sound. Pandol is suppose to make a person feel better but seems like panadol will end my life once the pill is taken!

& so Clare remains awake trying to find a song that has been playing in my mind! & right now, CRAP. I am hooked onto this song. This song depicts everyone's life I guess? I GUESS? Love the veronicas! They are like super awesome. Lyrics, tunes super awesome ttm!

Untouched - The Veronicas

Another good news is that my husband helped me so so much during these fast 3 days! Really saved my frigging ass from being fed to the cows. Serious. THANK YOU HUSBAND SO MUCH! & sorry for making you hold my house keys! =|. Now that you have it, you are welcome to use it anytime la! HAHAHA!

Alright. I know I am suppose to be resting! I should go too!

SAVING? I AM!!!!

2010-04-05T23:28:00.003+08:00

I am going to have that willpower to SAVE MORE & SPEND LESS. With the help of my husband, LP & Bf. Evrything will be much much better right? HAHAHAHA!

I hope so! Guess that I have to cut down on my prettayyeeee things & goodbye luxurious life! I shall now procced to freezing my ATM card. *places it into the refrigerator*. Okay! This month is going to be a deadly one. PMS & no shopping means sad Clare ttm. HAHAHA! But also have to train I guess?

Like what BF say, next time if I grow up, no one is going to take care of me anymore & no one is going to spoil me anymore! So right now, I must train myself to save save save. Once in a while I shall reward myself. & it just occured to me that I spend on so so so much clothes that I cannot even close my cupboard. LOL! Okay. Still can if I put some clothes outside! HAHAHAHAHA! So so so. I am going to be a BIG SAVING BITCH THIS MONTH. I MUST live a normal lifestyle.

Okay. I shall try it for 1 month first. Hoping to see results in 1 month's time!

Word Of Thanks

2010-04-04T22:13:00.003+08:00

Worthless Tears But It Certainly Felt Good Crying It Out.

Thank you, everyone who was there for me.

Revamps

2010-04-03T11:59:00.004+08:00

Bf was so sweet. Knowing that I was so upset about whatever that I was & currently am experiencing. He came all the way to my house at such an ungodly hour. The fact that he knewI was so upset & yet he still made a card with many smiley face stickers & a big smiley face soft toy made me happy. So thank you v much!

Thank you husband for your neverending words of concern. Really v v touched. & thank you LP for your help too! & Cass & Bai for the listening ear. Hotstuff for calling me just a few minutes ago. Kerwin for offering to be my shopping partner & many other friends. Thank you so so much.

Knowing me well, you guys know that this will not an easy battle for me to go through. Because every friendship to me is important. & my words of thanks will never be enough because you all do so so much more for me. But on the last note, thank you! I will get that cheerful side back as soon as possible alright!

Going for a revamp soon! Since my mum bought me a stylist package! Which means new hairstyle, new hair colour, new highlights. Forgetting the past is what I am going to do. Leave the hatred aside, & start from scratch.

Why Not Lets Just Keep It A Secret?

2010-04-02T14:22:00.004+08:00

Why not lets just keep everything a secret. When one knows something, suddenly the whole effing world knows. Why not I just shuddup & then the rest will just know nothing. Everyone will be happy & ta-daaa! Its done! Right?

& like what Bai always does. I will do it too shuddup mode *ON*. I love to share my problems with people. But if anyone dares to go to the extent of jeopardizing so many of my relationships with my other friends, then seriously. I HAVE TO SAY THIS. FUCK OFF. I do not like to use vulgarities. But many leave me no choice. When I publish this post. You can read it. But do not ask me why.

Because I will not even reply unless I truely gained your trust. Which some already did. If not JUST DONT ASK alright? Its truely annoying to the extent that I am using vulgarities on lent. If I don't want to tell you I have my reasons. Its either I do not want you to get hurt or lets face it, I don't trust you ENOUGH. Harsh as this may seem. But too bad. Reality sucks.

Just don't push your luck. Because secrets are meant to be kept & not blurted out. Secrets are not RULES! Rules, yes, meant to be broken. Secrets? I don't think so. You affect my life, I will let it go. Affect my friends, & I will promise myself never to forgive you.

Good Friday

2010-04-02T00:47:00.004+08:00

Its Good Friday.
Fast & Abstainence is here.

Right now, I need alot of quiet time alone.
I really thank god for giving me such awesome friends.
I am glad that dance can be a form of distractuon for me for just a mere 3 hours.
It makes a big difference.
As much as I want to run away from all problems.
I know I have to face the music.
Making the right decision is never easy.
& thats why the answer may never even come.
Because many will get hurt emotionally.

31March

2010-04-01T00:31:00.005+08:00

Congratulations to HSINRUI & YUSHAN for being the P & YP of DC! I am sure DC is going to have an awesome year ahead! With such awesome P & VP, everything will go smoothly!

Also! Congrates to Natalie for being in charge of DC's publicity & Sherwin for being the Logistics manager! While me, Secretary. LOL! HAHAHAHA.

Dance Company's AWESOME leaders! <3

Lulu has stepped down as P but I really enjoyed the time spent with her & Xuanren & the rest of the seniors who are graduating this year! & I will truely miss them alot! So please remember to come back & dance with us alright! YOU ALL WILL BE DEARLY MISSED!

DC's previous P & Current P.

Today, we have a new gang! Its called the BAG Gang! I shall not elaborate on it because it so funnily demoralizing! HAHAHA!

Anyway, Ms ong has completed 2/3 of the dance already! By tomorrow everything will be done! My muscles are aching like mad & I cannot even sit properly! Don't even start about the walking part. I'm practically limping while walking. Thank you bf for the muscles cream & spray! Very much appreciated! & thank you for coming all the way to my house to give me a surprise & help me carry a bag of cloth today! Love you very much! <3 face="trebuchet ms">Lastly I am stressing about the clubcrawl happiness photo. GAHHH! Someone. Please help me!

New committee! With 2 committee members missing! =]

No, We do not buy our legs from eBay. LOL!

Blackberry Dreams

2010-03-30T22:56:00.012+08:00

OMG! Its been such a long time since I saw husband! Miss her ttm! & she gave me a big big surprise today! So really thank you husband! I will save money to get our vera wang dress k! HAHAHAHA!
HER AWESOME PRESENT TO ME WAS....

YES! A CELINE SCARF & TOWEL. DAMN PRETTAYEEE. Celine ho-kayy! One of my top favourite brands! HAHAHAHA! & I can tie it around my bag! & i will frame the towel up because I cannot bear to use it man. MY GOD. CELINE OKAY! Remind me to frame it! HAHAHA! Its super niceeee cannn! OMG. Love it love it! & thank you for the care bear screen cleaner too!! =]

Went to Arab street after that to get chiffon cloth for the upcoming performance for clubcrawl! And there were like so many pretty chiffon colours! So very tempting to get 1metre of each colour. HAHAHAHA! Ended up getting white. LOL! & We camwhored yet again!!

Our super chio Blackberry. & a dream come true! Because Amanda & I always talked about "what happens if one day we take out BB out and start BBM-ing" & finally our wish came true! Love it ttm! <3>

IKR! She looks like a tai tai la! Longchamp bag & holding her blackberry. She does not pull off as a tai tai. SHE IS A TAI TAI! I saw your miracle card babe! hahahaha! SHARE AH! S-H-A-R-E.

After a long day out, went over to Amanda's house for dinner! Thanks babe for the dinner & your endless entertainment about the art of photoshopping. Laughed for like a freaking 2 hours non stop la! Now stomachache! HAHAHA! But I enjoyed every single second with you! Right now, there is no such thing called sms right babe? BBM all the way! <3<3

Btw, My laptop got resurrected. LOL! Thank god my dad managed to fix it because I do not want another laptop. I have no time to show it tender care anymore! With all those hectic dance practices & crazy schedules. LOL! Which reminds me that I have dance tomorrow! So eggcited!!

Death of Bimbo Acer

2010-03-30T10:38:00.004+08:00

Name: Bimbo Acer
Time of death:11pm
Cause of Death: Dropped & Bimbofied by Clare too many times

GG! My lappy carshed BIG TIME & making things worse. I do not have a back up copy of my data! YAY! *3 cheers* The only backups I have are my modules which i always save on the thumbdrive. Being the really stoopid IT eeediot me, I have no idea what is going on & thus leaving my dada to do the job of reformatting my laptop.

As much as I want to change my laptop. I have already changed it 2 times. If I change one more time, I think I can just go buy a house. (Just exaggerating!) HAHAHA! But its like from DELL to Lenovo to Acer. So, what's next? HP? VIAO?

EFFING PISSIFYING TTM!

Pictures - GONE
Music - GONE
School Work - unfortunately, AVAILABLE

God. Joke joke joke. If hotstuff sees this, she will be laughing her ass off. HAHAHAHA! Bimbo bimbo bimbo. GAH! & I have to do seom clubcrawl photo. WTH WTH WTH! Damn saddening. Suddenly its like time is against me. But I still love the fact that both my Blackberry & itouch can use the internet. hohohoho!

Leaving this traumatic experience aside, I LOVE DC's CLUBCRAWL CHOREOGRAPHY!

EGGCITING!

Its just BLAH BLAH BLAH

2010-03-27T22:49:00.003+08:00

It suddenly dawned on me that horoscopes are scarily accurate! But unfortunately, due to privacy reasons, I will do myself & everyone who is in this a favour by shutting up. So people. HOROSCOPE = SCARILY TRUE = NOT FUNNY = DON'T PLAY PLAY.
Understood-ed? Better be.

Anywayyyy, husband is FINALLY back! Miss her so so so much! & I have so many updates to tell her just that right now my nails are painted so its wet which makes me difficult to call or talk to her but I will make an effort to update her by tomorrow! HUSBAND! LETS HAVE A SLEEPOVERRRR!

BTW, I painted my nails Bluish-pink. Its niceeee! Lovely. I LIKE-Y LIKE IT! =] Anyway, I will be taking over Hsinrui tomorrow because due to health reasons, LP is unable to work! So tomorrow I will be at parkway m)phosis working! Whoohoo! But I'm sick. YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY? Because bf spread it to me. Guess that generous people are also generous with their illnesses! TYVM. Kidding Kidding! He is awesome! =]

& I went out with LP today! To get cloth for Clubcrawl! (If you guys are wondering if LP=LaoPo or however you spell it, NO. Its so cheena like for god sake.) LP = Lesbian partner. HAHAHA! Yes yes! & so I went to Katong with her so she could get a prettayeee haircut before bus-ing to Bugis,Arab street to get our cloth. Then we headed down to J.CO for our yoghurt once again! Hopefully I can loose 4kg soon! At the rate I am eating, lets see, the results would be NEVER! HAHAHAHAHA!

I know my LP is beautiful. SO DONT SNATCH DEY! HAHAHA!

Anyway, I was just saying that
I think my mum has just learnt the art of sacarsm. Looks like the older generation is UP & COMING.
Like seriously. She is soooo protective of whatever she says. & even a simple word "huh" from me makes her so damn sacarstic. LOL! Cannot stand her ttm. It went like this.

MUM: Tomorrow I drive you to work okay? We will leave the house at 1015 incase of any jam"
ME: HUH?
MUM: YOU DRIVE MEH? YOU THINK WHAT! IS I DRIVE LAR!
ME: Huh? Orhh.
MUM: *does the driving action* (stoopidly funny) & barks the word "DRIVE"
ME: WOAHHHH. Enjoyed the entertainment (& returns to lappy)

Like seriously. Am I the one going insane? Or is it the older generation. So pissifying ttm because they are like I dont know. I GIVE UP. LOL! Menopausal period. I GIVE IN! LOL!

25March

2010-03-26T11:28:00.005+08:00

It was just an impromptu outing with Hotstuff yesterday! Missed her so so so so much! & you know why whenever Hotstuff asks me out, I will definitely go all out & try to make the day free because I only get to meet her like once every few months. So yesterday was a super awesome day because once Caroline & I stepped into Forever 21. My god. Clothes started piling on our hands. Unfortunately, we took little photos from yesterday's outing! =]

As usual we went to
awesome place for lunch! HAHAHA! The food is still as good as ever. But I feel like I just put on 100kg. S-H-Y-T. & adding on to the 100kg was Haagen Daz treated by Hotstuff because she say she wants to celebrate for me for doing well. Alright. To me is an achievement alright! HAHAHA. May not be TO YOU. But TO ME, it is. So quit blabbering if your mouth is.

Dark Chocolate Orange & Belgium Chocolate With Crepes
Macadamia Nut & Melon With Crepes & Chocolate Drizzle

IKR! Sounds damn tempting! But God! Major dieting plan starts RIGHT NOW!

Meeting Hotstuff for tea later on!

BTW! Husband is coming back soon! I miss her so so so much. & we have alot to update each other!

Lady Luck

2010-03-24T23:57:00.005+08:00

Life has been awesome recently!

BECAUSE
1. I finally got my super prettayyeee Blackberry

2. I finally got my itouch

One gift from my mum & the other from my dad. Oh god. Now I feel spoilt ttm! HAHAHAHA! But I'm loving every moment of it now! Unfortunately, I am technology STOOPID Big time. I dont know why does technology even bother to approach me because I have no idea what I am doing with those 2 devices in my hand. Don't laugh but I seriously do not know how to transfer music into my itouch even though I have this list of instructions RIGHT IN MY FACE. Dammit. HAHAHAHAHA!

And bf is trying to teach me & I think he is really impressed with my low level of IT knowledge! But he is damn cute for being so patient with me & asking me to try & even calling me! HAHAHA! I think he got white hair already! =] haha. Thank youuuuuu! Loveeee youuu!

2010-03-23T11:15:00.004+08:00

OH-MY-MAMA-GOODNESS.

I am so so so so Happy! Because my GPA increased by 0.33! Like I totally didnt expect it! Because I mugged last minute! Due to the musical, I did not even have enough sleep & I still mugged my way till dawn, went to school dragging my feet, missed 2 weeks worth of lessons or even more.

Hard work definitely pays off! Just yesterday I was being such an A*Hole. Panicking & making others panick with me! For that I apologise! BUT I JUST AM SO SO HAPPY! HAHAHAHAHA

B-E-C-A-U-S-E,
I GOT INTO THE SPECIALIZATION I WANTED! HAHAHAHAHAHA! & so now, I will no longer be concentrating on a large scale of Business Management but just specializing in Human Resource!

Not only that! Cass is in the same class as me! SO SO SO SO SO LUCKY & HAPPY!

How awesome is that! DAMN AWESOME! I have never felt happier than this! So freaking happy! I think I can eat a cow right now. No! Just kidding! HAHAHAHA! Maybe right now, I should try asking my mum to get me my Blackberry. HAHAHAHAHA! Then I will be able to get it EARLIER! whoohoo!~ Life's getting eggciting ttm! =] & Thank you Caroline love for asking me about my results at 9am. OMG. She really is the love! Still can remember when I am getting back my results!

Year 2 is approaching but first I have to get over & done with clubcrawl! Another set of tedious practices coming up! Wish me luck *cross fingers*.

The only thing thats annoying me right now is MSN. Stoopid ass technology. Lagging like mad. Its either my lappy is cranky or MSN is being an Ass. I dont care which it is. But I think if this happens another time, my lappy is going right into the chute.

2010-03-22T16:10:00.003+08:00

The funniest things I hear from my cutest friends today. LOL!

Conversation One:

CarolineChantel is BORED. says:
*hahha YOU'RE THE DEFINITION OF BIMBO

ClareElizabeth ♥ says:
*HAHAHAHA!
*so next time
*in the DIC
*it will be
*bimbo
*definition:clare

CarolineChantel is BORED. says:
*hahaha
*that dictionary is definitely the most updated one

Conversation Two:

kerferwinfin%20=) says:
*u ah
*damm kuku
*i swear
*i feeel like
*going to ur house
*slap u
*then go back
*lol

ClareElizabeth ♥ says:
*hahahaha
*come man!
*HAHAHAHA

kerferwinfin%20=) says:
*AHHH HAAAA
*now thats a scam
*i swear

ClareElizabeth ♥ says:
*whyyy!
*HAHAHA

kerferwinfin%20=) says:
*after that you have ur bf hidding at the house opposite with a sniper rifle
*then boom!
*there goes my pretty face
*lol

ClareElizabeth ♥ says:
*HAHAAHAHAHHA!
*I AM SO GONNA SCREEN SHOT THIS!
*HAHAHAHA

kerferwinfin%20=) says:
*FAGGIt
*WTH
*WHAT THE HECK

This is what stress does to you. EXTREME. LOL!

2010-03-22T12:14:00.003+08:00

One of the many things people have on their "hate" list & I will draw out the 2 things that people hate most. WAIT. Make the word DETEST MOST, is
1. sitting for exams &
2. getting back the results.
Very often people always say, what you sow, you reap. But in poly. Its not only about sowing or reaping anymore. Its about sucking up to your lecturers so that your freaking GPA may just go up by 0.05. As pathetic as this 0.05 may sound, it plays a BIG part on whether you can specialise in the course you want.(if you ever have to specialise).

Its freaking me out! I am like really really scared that I think I am having insomnia. H-O-W? Why can't we receive our results like today so that I can breathe properly. Right now, I am so so so nervous, my legs keep cramming on me. But results will only come out in like 18-21hours time. GAHHH!

& so, as nervous as I am, I am sure everyone is nervous too! So right now, I will just take this moment to say a short prayer.

Dear God,
"we ask You to give us Your peace in times of apprehension & worry,
that we may learn to put our trust in You.
Quieten the uneasiness of our minds & still the fears of our hearts that we may meet our times of receiving of results with courage & confidence.
Fill us with the assurance that You are by our side,
ready to strengthen us.
Keep us modest in success & courageous in failure.
Help us to set realistic targets of achievements in our studies,
that we may always do our best to bring honour & pride to ourselves, our family & our school."
Amen.

5 more days!

2010-03-21T12:04:00.005+08:00

Before I forget. Let me put my current happiness aside and thank the many people who helped me along the way! Thank you VERY VERY much to

1. HsinRui
2. Louisure
3. Amanda
4. Caroline
5. Xuan Ren
6. Michelle Chng
7. Carlos
8. Cassandra
9. Bai
10. Natalie
11. Eileen
12. Shaoyu
13. Damon
14. Claire
15. Kerwin
16. Marcia
17. Michelle Ong
18. Zhi Yong

Thank you for the countless support especially my girlfriends. Thank you for the funny gossips we shared & discussed about! I still love you all very very much!

LOVE!

2010-03-21T00:21:00.007+08:00

Today was a major hooha. Seriously.
Firstly, Today's train services were closed. Super WTF! Because Michelle & I were planning to meet up to go to the airport to fetch some of our friends who are arriving from OBT. & unfortunately, the train service was down. Pissifying ttm! & so we cabbed to the airport. 13bucks ho-kayyy! If I didnt spend that 13 bucks, I will be 13 bucks closer to my Blackberry! KNS. HAHAHAHAHA! It was the first time Michelle & I sweared so much. All the profanities were just flowing out from our mouths, really hilarious!

We were suppose to reach the airport at 3pm but ended up in the airport at 4pm. All because of the stoopid damn train! & may I repeat this? Its pissifying! LOL! Went to startbucks to have a cup of Hot cocoa since it has been raining non stop since like God knows when! Then we headed to T3 Hong Kong cafe for dinner! & we had porridge! & not forgetting our Bimbo talks! Really had alot alot alot of fun time with her! Like I said, you are always the most unglam with your girlfriends! =] Some of our BIMBOTIC shots!

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Had your laugh? Alright! Super unglam! There are even worse & more unglam shots but I will NEVER post it up. HAHAHAHA!

At 730pm, Michelle & I went to wait at the Arrival hall at Terminal 1. Met Bai & Nas there too! =] Miss them so much! Hang out soon okay! Waited for the OBT team till like 9pm. GOD. 1.5hours worth of waiting! World record already! LOL! & following that a few of us went to Hong Kong Cafe(yes again) for supper. But I did'nt eat. S-E-R-I-O-U-S. LOL! Diet diet =] HAHAHA! Left the airport with Clarence at about 1030pm & he sent me home.

Some things are meant to be a secret. & so when I put this picture up, I guess most of you will know what i mean =]

You Mean Alot To Me =]
20 March 2010 - 11.52pm

6 more days till I meet my husband!~

2010-03-19T18:42:00.003+08:00

Just last night. I did something that was beyond what I would ever do.
And if you are thinking S%E*X#. NO! Get that word out of your head dude! LOL!

If you know me well, you would know that I am VERY VERY VERY afraid of needles. Only some know why I am afraid of needles while some know the story behind why I am afraid of needles. But I guess due to my weak stomach, my mum brought me to the hospital to get an injection. Being bloated for like God knows how many days, just last night, my stomach went bonkers. Hell broke loose if you asked me to describe it. HAHA! I guess I am much better now? Or maybe not. Toilet is my second home since last night & it continued again today. Hopefully tomorrow I will be fine! *pray pray*

& I hope that tonight I will have a good sleep! tskkkk! So that if I ever have dance tomorrow. I can dance properly! =]

I was suppose to go out with Cassandra & Michelle today but I am so sorry girls I had to cancel on you all last minute because I could'nt even stand properly let alone walk! I hope we can one more outing together! Really miss you girls plenty! & all our girlf's gossips! HAHA!

Plus, I baked again today!! The cake of the day is Marble butter cake! So happy yet again because my cake was a success! awesome awesome ♥.

Its niceeee! But I am still a chocolate lover! So chocolate pleases my taste buds alot more! But I just wanted to try something different! Next cake I will be baking will be Coffee Oreo Butter Cake! SO EGGCITING!

Btw, My husband, dearest Amanda, left for Japan for a school trip today! & I am already missing her so so so much =[. I miss my husband! ALOT. I have yet to update her on some things and right now she is on the plane to Japan! I will see you in 8 days time alright! LOVE YOU!

My mum was just asking me where should our end year holiday be again? And she was asking if England or Korea. ENGLANDDDD! I want to go England! & the only reason why we would be going back to Korea is only to stock up our make up products. LOL! Oh well! We still have a long long way to decide! I want a wintery country! Because winter is awesome! ♥

1 more day!~

2010-03-18T22:01:00.011+08:00

Freedom is something everyone yearns for. Right? I guess only Michelle will get the whole story!

Today was yet another eggciting dayyy! I taught Michelle how to cook! Whoohoo. Alright. Though I am not that pro but I still can teach right! I am seriously NOT a bimbo. & if you are questioning the status on my FB. *Stares at Michelle* SHE DID IT! HAHAHAHA! Anyway, Michelle came over to my house at 11am today & we cooked lunch for ourselves! Super super fun! By the time we ate it was approx. 1pm because we spent more time talking compared to eating~! But the food was nice HO-KAYYYY!

Yes! Michelle is COOKING!~ =]

Why do people say that some girls do not need make up? Just a teeny bit of eyeliner and a swipe of mascara does the job & makes the girl PRETTAYYYEEE. If you dont believe. See the difference. Because I made Michelle a bimbo today! HAHAHA! She went out with makeupppp!♥ LOL!

Before make up!
After Make up!

GOT DIFFERENCE?! HAVE RIGHTTTT! =]

But whatever it is, she is still my pretty dear BIMBO! =]

& then off we went to Bugis! Wanted to do some shopping for Mich but I ended up buying myself a pair of slippers. LOL! So much for saving money. But I'M TRYING! Michelle said I did improve! right? =] We dined at Soup Spoon since I AM on a diet. Yes, I need to go on a diet. Need to. Have to. WANT TO. loose weight B-A-D-L-Y. & after walking around Bugis for a while, we ended up at J.CO for a cup of nice hot green tea & yoghurt. I know I know. I just had yoghurt yesterday & today I am having another cup. GOD. But yoghurt IS healthy right? LOL! & Michelle & I had alot of heart to heart talk. Laughed like anything as usual! Our bimbotic moments are always and will always be the best right dear! IKR! HAHAHA! =] Can't wait to see you on Saturday!

2 more days!

2010-03-17T22:22:00.007+08:00

I feel happy & contented with my life.

Though its kind of sad to see that Amanda will be leaving this Friday for a Japan school trip & that I would not be seeing my dearest HUSBAND for the next 8 days. UGHHH. Sucks ttm. But whatever. I am going to use that 8 days to loose 4 kilograms! I INSIST! And no one is going to stop me!

In another 3 days time, my friends will be coming back from OBT. How time flies. And just last thursday, I sent them off. LOL!

Dance training, unfortunately, was cancelled today. Clubcrawl is coming & its stressing me out! *pulls hair* H-O-W?!
Life still goes on right? & SOOOOO, I met Hsinrui LP & lulu for an update session! HAHA! Miss them so so so much! Every time I meet them, it feels like my updates are endless. Anyway, I will be meeting them, hopefully, this Saturday. If not, it will be on a Wednesday! btw Girls! Hope you like the cake I baked! Next time you will be my testers alrighties?! HAHAHA! Whatever cake I bake you are gonna eat it! Anyway, we went to Crystal Jade followed by J.Co yoghurt! Super super full. And coincidentally, Shaoyu & Carlos came to Bugis as well! So we ended up hanging out with them. LOL! Fun fun because we were laughing so much whereever we walked. I guess we were the noisiest group. Pfffft~

Loose weight loose weight loose weight loose weight. Thats the phrase that WILL be going through my mind starting from today all the way till 31 March. & speaking of which, Ms ong's Birthday is coming. HSINRUIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!

Wishlist update
1. Blackberry
2. Kate spade Wallet

3 MORE DAYS!

2010-03-16T17:51:00.010+08:00

Boredom kills!

It has been raining for 3 consecutive days already! Pissifying as hell because my ankle keeps hurting. G-A-HHHHH.

Today I am a really really good girl! I have to admit! I didnt go out neither did I spend any money! Happy happy!

Baked a Chocolate butter cake & feeling super accomplished!
Tried the cake & it tasted awesome! I will bake some on Friday so that I can pass to my friends on Saturday! EGGCITING! =] HAHAHAHA.

No, its not my arm. LOL!

IKR. It looks boring because I am soooo lazy to decorate! But having a slice of chocolate butter cake always makes your day! Especially when you a sipping a cup of English breakfast tea! God. I feel so sinful! Time for a diet. I SWEAR!

Another 4 MORE DAYS & counting!!~ =]

2010-03-15T17:29:00.004+08:00

I am sooooo determined to save some money so that my mum can just SHUDDUP for 1 minute. My ears ache badly from her neverending nagging. Pisses me off big time. Menopausal women makes her family suffer i guess? Now I know why I hardly go home these few days. And now I know why I spend so much time out because my mum's neverending mouth is worse than a machine gun. Seriously. If there is a way to describe my mum's mouth its this. It only works when there is solar energy. Any form of light on her will make her talk. Once everything is dim, she will stop nagging. Which is most likely AT NIGHT, when she is saving up all the energy so that she can continue the following morning. OH-MY-GOD. This is seriously called "spare me the agony, please!"

Currently, plugging in the earpiece into my ears are like no longer a want but a necessity. My mum's words are becoming more like a lullaby instead of a nuisance. And even when I am not tired, the motion of her mouth already makes me want to sleep. Just like she is hypnotising me. Pissifying ttm! And tomorrow I am not going out, so I pray so so so damn hard that nothing will happen. If not, I have a request! I want a purple coffin with swaroski crystals k! HAHAHAHAHA =].

Anyway, Michelle came over to my house for a swim today & we shared alot of our thoughts with each other! Totally enjoyed my time with her! Seriously! Makes me happy to actually share my thoughts with her & vice versa. Anyway, I guess I am getting more and more disciplined! LOL! Because I keep coming home early everyday! And sleeping early too! Life's boring!~ But dance practices are starting soon! =]

5 MORE DAYS!!~

2010-03-14T14:31:00.007+08:00

Hey peeps!

Just yesterday at 10pm. My first virgin experience of clubbing was GONE. Amander and I have always talked about wanting to try out clubbing and just yesterday I did! First went to Taboo, then followed by Butter factory!

Unfortunately, Butter factory was a total screw off and I dont really want to talk about it here but it sucks ttm! Guys were super touchy there and you have to like really open your eyes to look out for them and music was so loud I swear it numbed my ears. Taboo was awesome! Though yesterday was gay night. But it was one of the better experiences because the friends I made there are seriously nice nice people. For people who are questioning my status. I AM STRAIGHT. I am just going Taboo for the experience alright? Made many nice new friends there! And I really wanna thank Dickson & Kerwin for bringing Hsinrui and I to explore a newer way to have fun! Though half the time they were helping me drink up my drinks. HAHAHAHA! =] So cute la! But thank you. I will just stick to coke & refrain from rolling on the floor! =] LOL!

Anyway, I will be looking forward to meeting you guys again! Enjoyed my time in Taboo ttm!

6 more days!

2010-03-12T18:09:00.007+08:00

Outing With Cassandra

IKR! I have been practically going out everyday. OMG. And everytime I go out, I spend. Can someone like PLEASE teach me the technique of saving? HAHA! Nahhh. Its alright. When I am stressed, I spend. So don't fret! Its not gonna be long term. LOL! Bought a new wallet from Guess(Like finally), 2 tops, new accessories. YAYYYY. HAHAHA!

Anyway, Cass brought me to this place where we sat on swings to eat! Its damn cool! And not only that! The food is priced at quite an affordable range and not only that! Its goodddddd~~~~

The place that we sat for lunch! Looks awesome right! I knowwwww~ So eggciting! =] HAHAHA!

And I thought I could refrain myself from spending so we ended up sitting at Paragon Starbucks sipping tea!

But to no avail. My plan failed terribly because after catching up for 2 hours we ended up shopping! =] HAHAHAHA! But we did go into borders to look at book and we ended up taking photos. LOL!

As usual. Our stupid faces but never failing to give our most awesome smile for the last before we continue shopping! =]

Tomorrow, I will be meeting Kerwin & Hsinrui. OMG. Crap. Another day of shopping?!?! I think I already have enough plastic bags to recycle. Hopefully I have the willpower to STOP shopping. Because I am trying to be environmentally friendly. Lesser plastic bags in my room please! TYVM.

8 MORE DAYS!~

2010-03-11T23:11:00.009+08:00

Outing With Hotstuff!

It has been ages since I went out with hotstuff and I missed her so so so so much! Really alot. When I saw her I felt so glad to finally meet my best friend. And I could feel the shopping spirit in her. LITERALLY. HAHAHAHA! And so you know right. When best friends meet, we do not only talk but we SHOP & TALK & EAT. OMG. FAT FAT FAT!

Anyway, today is such a sinful day! I bought like 2 bags, 1 top & 2 pairs of shoes & some makeup. Totalling up to $300 on shopping itself. Not forgetting lunch, tea and dinner. OMG. I think I just spent like $350.

OOOOOOOHHHHHHHH-MYYYYYY- GODDDDDD.

Nvm. I am happy. I love the bag I bought! Oh wait. I love the BAGSSSSSS I bought. Its super super nice! But I didnt take photos of the shopping I did because I am not so hardworking to do so. So its your duty to Figure out! HAHAHAHA=]

But before all those tiring shopping, Caroline and I went to grab lunch before the major spree. Dropped by Hong Kong Cafe because for dinner we went to T.G.I.F. LOL! Super good food I swear! And not only that, the waiters there were damn cute, they started coming to our table to introduce themselves and telling us their names. LOL! Damn cute. HAHAHAHA! But I really recommend the food at T.G.I.F. Its really good and worth the money. Seriously. Just try once! It wont hurt! =]

Anyway, Hotstuff & I are planning yet another outing and HOPEFULLY it will be by the end of March. And it will be yet another major shopping spree. Oh crap. I need to start working ONE MORE TIME! Hate the earning but love the spending! HAHAHAHAHA!

9 MORE DAYS TO GO!~

Hotstuff says I look better with this hair colour.

This is just half of the shopping. You will never have the chance to see the rest because it nearly gave Caroline's boyfriend a heartattack. So I am not surprise if you all suffer from a heart attack too! HAHAHAHAHA! =]

See her COACH bag! Damn nice right. I am going to buy it. Nahhh! Kidding! =] Or should I??? LOL! =]

CLOSE UP!

2010-03-04T11:28:00.005+08:00

God. Is this post exam sickness or what?
Sorethroat, ugh
Flu, UGH
Stomach flu, RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
3 in 1 package huh.
Piss me off. Major ttm.

Anyway, GUESS WHAT. I may be getting a blackberry.
To my dearest husband, SHYT YOU. HAHAHA! Promote until so nice plus got what purple casing super pretty one. IRRITATING. Ya ya! Once I get it. I will pimp it with crystals too! OMG. Then I will have 2 pretty phones. So eggciting! I shall check out the prices laterrrr.

Anyway, I will be meeting Hsinrui later. YAYYY~~ It has been like ages since I really had a heart to heart talk with her. Okay. Not only with hsinrui but with Amanda, Caroline, Marcia, Zhilin, Cass, Mich, Lulu, Xuanren and the list goes on. LOL! Oh wells, I am really having a super bad headache and block nose so I better not continuing typing before I spill some beans out.

toodles!!~

2010-03-03T00:52:00.003+08:00

Officailly my last day working for m)phosis sale! But without a doubt, I will still continue working at m)phosis! Hopefully they can post me somewhere much nearer rather than vivocity. TSK.

Anyway, putting all the hatred I have for m)phosis customers aside. Today I shall talk about happiness.

Happiness is such a simple word that sometimes you have to admit it can be deceiving. Right? Everyone has their own found happiness. The only difference is that it comes in different forms.

Personally to me, for my past 18 years, I swear that my girlfriends were my happiness. They were practically what I had to live on. Just like our staple food. And even till now, they are! I need them every second in my life! Especially my very close darlings!(you know who you are girlfriends!)

But what didnt occur to me was that finding someone you really like can bring you happiness too. Its a different happiness la! Really. I always lived in my own world thinking that my future happiness would be someone looking like Hyun joong. LOL! I know right! I will spare you guys the agony of hearing my korean husbands talk.

I have finally learnt that Happiness can come in small little forms. Like just talking or holding hands. It doesnt have to come in nicely wrapped presents. 18 years of my life, I have spent thousands of dollars thinking that money can bring people happiness. I always had that perception, that when people receive something expensive, they will be happy. Unfortunately, it does not apply for everyone. Some like it simple. Just a handmade card can make their day or even allow their smiles to reach from one end to the other. That is how significant tiny gifts are. I have learnt that it is the thought that counts and not the value of the present. "It is the thought that counts" was a very vague sentence to me. I always wondered. what the hell are these people talking? But I finally realise what it means.

So, today people, think about it. Think about the people who made life happy and thank them. It does not have to be an expensive gift! Make them chocolates or cookies! Every small gift brings joy to others. Trust me. Because I have finally learnt the skill of not spending money and doing small little gifts for people. So much more fun. Like really.

So, I just want to thank "bum". Thank you for the teachings. Because I really learnt alot from you! =]

2010-02-28T23:16:00.004+08:00

I resign to fate. So many things have occured during the absense of my blogging for the past lIKE 5 WEEKS. Omg. I apologise for the lack of updates and countless emotional wrecks I brought my friends through with me. I would really like to thank you guys for being there for me! Cliche much? But its true! =]

It has been estimated about a month since the musical has ended. Unfortunately, I am oh-so-forever-lazy. The photos are on FB. So do check them out though they arre somewhat limited. But just for the memories, I uploaded a few. The end of the musical brought further stress when exams were in 1 week time. I kudos to the people who participated in musical and especially the Year 3 people who managed to handle the stress of completing everything by the dateline. As stress as we are, there is no such thing as postponing to a later dateline right? So thats a reality check there.

The time during the exam period was hell. Stress plus other external problems so very nearly caused me to break down. Not literally but just mentally. So thank you for the continuous support my dear friends!

And btw, I managed to find a job at m)phosis. All thanks to Hsinrui! HAHAHA! Thanks dear for introducing me that job. Tough job but awesome pay and I will be lauging my ass off once I see the rise in my account balance. LOL! =]

When I mean tough job. I really do mean tough job. Alright. Looking at this in a very general way. So do not take any offence. Sales periods are always the MOST hectic and BLAH period. So when people tend to see the word "sale", the only thing in their mind is to go in and grab whatever they can find! Since its on a discount. Which is super stoopid. Because they make life so difficult for us workers. SALE = MESS. So obviously clothes are strewned all over by everyone and our duty as workers are to pick after their "shit". Yes. After seeing the clothes, all they know how to do is leave them lying around or throw it on the ground while others step on it. It makes them seem like hooligans who dont even have a single decent wardrobe and they act like imbeciles thinking that the clothes are floormats. It pisses me off even more that when I am picking the clothes up from the ground, they act like I am not there and start stepping on my fingers. SO RIGHT NOW, MY FINGERS LOOK MORE LIKE STUMPS. IRRITATING RIGHT? IKR! and they are bleeding with skin peeling. It looks so pathetic I think it will look better when I have colourful plasters on. Seriously, seeing aunties fight for clothes are worse than having nightmares about dinosaurs chasing you. Aunties literally grab whatever they can find. Its so ridiculous. Especially when they so obviously need an "L" size but they try to fit into some size called "S". No wonder buttons keep popping out. And not only that, these aunties who throw clothes everywhere as if m)phosis is a night market make us find for clothes. Seriously, They should pay us tips ypu know. I need those tips to treat my fingers, eh! I mean stumps. YES. Annoying. Now it scares me to go for GSS sale. Because if I meet anymore of these AUNTIES. I think the end of the world will arrive much earlier.

toodles!!~ =]

2010-02-24T20:26:00.002+08:00

I will blog in ONE MORE DAY TIME!

1 more paper to go and my notes will be right down the chute!
SOOOOO EGGCITING! *like what hsinrui always says* =]

2010-02-07T19:42:00.003+08:00

Musical has ended. But exams are coming. So I will not be blogging for these 3 weeks alright? Musical photos will be up as soon as exams are done! Really sorry for any delay.

Reality has hit me harder than ever. And its impossible to pull myself up.
The only thing that reality does is demoralise you.
I only have 1 week to pull myself up. Is it really enough?

2010-02-04T08:51:00.000+08:00

Musical in 2 days time.
Semestral exams in 16 days time.

oh god. Just kill me! =[

2010-01-31T20:14:00.004+08:00

Hey peeps! In just another 5 days, it will be NYP big musical. A musical that will only happen once every 3 years. However, to get to that musical, I have to get pass all those tedious 12 hour dance practices for the next 4 more days and 1 horrible presentation which is going to happen tomorrow!

Anyway, its exciting! But the fact that I have to bring SO many things tomorrow pisses me off. Business clothes, dance clothes, slippers, High heels. crap. I feel like I am actually moving house. LOL! But I still look forward to hanging out with the dancers! And I am really glad that we dancers have the perserverance. No matter how matter times we get shouted at, we will put our 200% for whatever dance we do! =]

Anyway, let me divert this topic before I get into a dancer's theory which will not be nice!

Just 2 days ago, Xuan ren, Hsinrui Yushan and I hanged out at Lulu's place and had a sleepover! Enjoyedmyself alot! Laughed till 2am before all of us dozed off and woke up at 7am. LOL! But that 5 hours of sleep could bring us to do 12 hours worth of dancing. Not bad huh. HAHA! =]

Yesterday was somewhat weird? Its like a first time experience. Funny yet awkward. To the guy, I am really sorry I am unable to accept the lollipop you gave me. It was kind of awkward because I was having horrible night blindness in the auditorium and all of a sudden you passed me this heart shape lollipop which is as big as my palm size. Upon seeing it. I already felt like I had a toothache. I apologise for returning it to you and I am sure you can give it to someone much much better =] Such a cliche sentence. But I am just not for you and neither are you for me alright? I hope I made a dinstinct clear line and it would'nt affect you so much alright? Dance well and smile!

But you have to admit, it was quite an awkward place where Hsinrui was next to me in shock. And me suffering from night blindness squinting at what "guy Y" gave to me. And the only thing Hsinrui said was. OMG. LOL! Such a nice girl! HAHAHAHAHA=] Thank you Lulu for helping me too! And giving me tips on how to reject when I was clearly freaking out and thinking of ways to reject him within that 1 hour. LOL! Also thank you DC-ians for helping me out so much! =]

Performance in another 5 days time! WE CAN DO IT ALRIGHT! Love you all! <3

toodles!!~

2010-01-28T11:26:00.006+08:00

Hey peeps! I know right now, its so rare for me to be blogging since I am xuper xuper busy to the extent I dont even have time to talk to Hotstuff or Amander. Thank god for today's timetable, I only have a lecture which is from 3 to 5. Thinking about it makes me super tired because I am still having lack of sleep. But of cos I will try my best to update you all!

Dancers are starting to get sick! Plus I am STILL sick. Since last saturday. Horrible block nose, barely any voice. Dancers! Please take care alright? Drink more water and PLEASE eat! I dont think dieting is possible right now! Hsinrui also must take care ah! Dont tire yourself out dear! Sleep more okay? =] Twin! You take care of your muscles too ah! You muscles pain, My muscles also pain. UGHHH. HAHA! Xuanren, take care of your leg! Dont kick now! On the day of our performance we will WOW the audiences with our kick k! hahahaha! Lulu! Dont stress now! We will be here for you okay! No matter what! =] Friday is gonna be AWESOME =]

And not forgetting Bai, Please please please take care of your hand! Cass, Cheer up okay! You still have me! =] And Michelle! Sleep early ah! =]

Just managed to call Hotstuff an hour ago. And she said some things that made me feel happy yet sad for her. But dear! No matter what, As long as you are happy, I will be happy okay? =]

Anyway, I am reaching my target already! I just need to loose another 2 more kg! OMG. So exciting! I already lost 4 kg! WHOOHOO! =] HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! 2 more to goooo! =]
Makes me so excited! =]

Toodles!!~

2010-01-27T10:30:00.001+08:00

Another 9 more days to NYP musical.

ANOTHER WHOLE LOT OF PRACTICES FOR THE NEXT 2 WEEKS FROM 10AM TO 10PM.
Tired ankles, sprained back, stiff neck, ugh and dont even mention the rest.

SO NOT FUN.

2010-01-20T15:56:00.004+08:00

Hey peeps!
Its been a long long time since I actually blogged! But today is a very important day! CONGRATULATIONS TO MY 2 DARLINGS. Cass and Bai for getting installed! =] I have no idea why I am so happy but I am just happy for them =] HAHAHAHA! And since I cannot really have a proper congratulations nor attend their ceremony, I decided to get them flowers! =]
And looking at the flowers just make me want to get one for myself. But ahhh. wth. Get myself one because I dance everyday ah? LOL! Anyway, the 2 really sweet looking ones are for my 2 darlings while the others are for the nice friends I made while hanging out with Cass!

Congratulations to you A-team people! Really happy for you all. I apologise that I am unable to stay through the ceremony because of the damn it dance. But enjoy yourself alright! =] Hope you guys have as much fun as you all always do! <3

toodles!!~

Yeah yeah. Just blabber on now

2010-01-16T13:15:00.003+08:00

It takes a lot of effort to trust someone and it just takes one word to demoralize someone. Words are so powerful to the extent many of us do not know how to use it properly.

Just this morning, my mum screamed at me for not saving. Seriously, in what way does my spending from $1000 a month reduce to $300 a month shows that I am not saving? She says that I am not trying my best. Yeah right! It took me at least 2 months to get the habit of NOT SPENDING. Seeing something I like but i dont get it because I am so afraid my mum will scream at me. It pisses me off when she read the things I spent on. And most of them are like my once in a while shopping. tsk. Imagine. $300 a month including food and drinks compared to $1000 a month on clothes clothes, more clothes, manicure, food and BLAH.

Parents think that the more they shout the more their children will listen. It never once occured to them that they are a effing 30 years older than us. And THAT is how big our generation gap is. They always think that they are right in every possible way. Thinking that we children DO NOT HAVE A MIND OF OUR OWN. Thinking that we are just as smart as them, as thrifty as them, as naggy as them. OMG. I have no idea. But nagging is totally out of my league. Nagging is NOT caring. Its pure annoyance. They keep repeating the same thing thinking that we got their words into our brains and yet it does not occur to them we keep doing the same thing. In the end, their words fall on deaf ears. And who is to blame again? US.

They do not even care about how we, teenagers feel. They just nag as if they are shooting a machine gun. Every toxic word that comes out of their mouth hurts us. But they do n ot even know. They just blabber on till they are pleased with themselves. And parents always say that we kids are deaf because we turn our MP3 volumes to the maximum.

Look here okay? Who is to be blamed? Us or Them? Of cos them. When they nag, the easiest way out is to plug ear pieces into our ears and blast our music. Whatever it is. It just starts of with them. major tsktsktsk!

2010-01-13T23:21:00.005+08:00

It has been ages since I actually met Hotstuff and when I finally met her today, we did our usual crazy things! =] Spent hell alot of money and feeling damn guilty. But who cares right? Because when you are out with your best friend, the only thing you want to do is, HAVE FUN!
Hope you enjoy the photos! =]

Now you know why she is called Hotstuff right? =]

Our $9.50 ice cream. Or more like 9500 calories ice cream! =\

I apologise for asking my pictures to do the talking becauseeeee I have to start compiling the powerpoint for my project since next week is the oh-so-awesome presentation! Wish me luck guys!

toodles!!~

2010-01-11T22:51:00.002+08:00

I just noticed that it has been 5 days since I actually blogged. WOW. I must be THAT busy to actually forget about blogging.

And finally! After like months of not talking to hotstuff, I managed to talk to her over the phone for 2 hours =] HAHAHA! Its been such a long time since we actually talked like this! Unfortunately now, she is listening to her lullaby. So oh wells~

It is kinda awesome to know that I will be going back for dance 4 times this week. NOT. Sucks ttm. Its like super dammit shitty WASTE MY BLARDY TIME. Its so annoying that the fact sometimes you get scolded for other people's doings you know? Okay, no matter how much I say, I doubt you guys will understand. Annoying much. I just feel like pulling every strand of hair out. Annoying so-bibs man.

Anyway, I want to do something crazy again. Crap. I wanna highlight my hair light pink. Shyt Clare. LOL! All your rubbish again!

toodles!!~

Dancers

2010-01-06T23:21:00.002+08:00

Thank you Darling Bai for my bunny doremon and the drive from one carpark to another carpark in NYP! HAHAHA! Love you love you LOVE YOU! =]

Anyway, alot of things happened in dance today. I was stoning likel literally. Even Nu bi said I look damn lethargic today! Yeah man. Another 19 more rehearsals. I dare not even look at my face by then!~ LOL! I think I will just scare myself! HAHAHAHA =]

I guess by this time, we dancers have to start perservering. If we just give up half way or loose the support from the other dancers, we will just break down. Staying together is one thing. But dancing together in unision is other thing. Looking at the dance is one thing, but performing is a whole lot different. I must say that we dancers have certainly stayed strong. The countless practices we had, the work piled up on us and yet everytime we dance we will try our best to smile and dance to the best of our ability. And that, I must say that I really look up to the dancers.

Many people who actually encounter what we encounter. I can actually say that they will give up. Literally. But one thing I can say that we dancers have but the other do not have is determination. Many people think that dancing is not important but to us dancers, it is the movement of one's mind, body and soul. And the only people who have this spirit are the dancers.

2010-01-04T22:06:00.002+08:00

Firstly, I would like to wish Kerwin a
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY!

Hope you like your present ya! =] Its $5 JEANS! NOT! Its Levi's. So you better get your ass into it ah! =] HAHAHAHA! kidding! But still Happy birthday! Hope you enjoyed yourself! I promise to attend your birthday party with Hsin Rui this saturday! =]

Juicy Couture Perfume
Pink swaroski earrings, Juicy Couture perfume and 1 Harrods bear =]

Secondly, I would like to thank my cousin and stannly for the presents!
To stannly, Thank you for the pink swaroski crystal earrings. But I still dont think its $99 ba! HAHAHA
To my husband! Thank you for the Harrods soft toy teddy and the juicy couture perfume! OMG. I totally love your gift! and stann's too of course! =] HAHAHA!
LOVE YOU BOTH ESPECIALLY MY HUSBAND! =]

Lastly, went out with Hsinrui , Lulu and Xuan ren today! Wah. Seriously, After being 1 month away from Xuan Ren, she lost so much weight! Like 3kg! OMG. LOL. I want to go China and get food poisoning also =] HAHAHAHAHA =] So since my project meeting UNEXPECTEDLY ended at 1pm today since I actually expected it to end at 5pm. I ended up meeting Hsinrui first before meeting Lulu and Xuanren. Bought a top with Nu bi from Hula & Co. tsktsk! Saving money is an utter fail to both of us! =] HAHAHA! Finally at 7pm, we met Lulu and Xuanren at Bugis pasta Mania. And we sat there for 2 hours to talk. By the time we left Pasta Mania, it was already 9pm. LOL! But I truely enjoyed myself, Because we always end up laughing so loudly! =].

Lastly, this is going to be our dance schedule. Till the performance ends. TSK-

6 Jan - 630pm - 1000pm
8 Jan - 630pm - 1000pm
9 Jan - 1 00pm - 400pm
12 Jan - 630pm - 1000pm
13 Jan - 630pm - 1000pm
16 Jan - 100pm - 4 00pm
20 Jan - 400pm - 900pm
21 Jan - 400pm - 900pm
22 Jan - 400pm - 900pm
23 Jan - 1000am - 1000pm
25 Jan - 400pm - 900pm
26 Jan - 400pm - 900pm
27 Jan - 400pm - 900pm
28 Jan - 400pm - 900pm
29 Jan - 400pm - 900pm
30 Jan - 1000am - 1000pm
1 Feb - 1000am - 1000pm
2 Feb - 1000am - 1000pm
3 Feb - 1000am - 1000pm
4 Feb - 1000am - 1000pm
5 Feb & 6 Feb - Performance Day!

OMG. I am already freaking out. Because on top on these rehearsals I have project work. Like LITERALLY D-I-E. I think I will end up crawling to school everyday. LOL!

toodles!!~

2010-01-02T21:25:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps! Woots!~
Met amander today! Like finally! And watched Alvin & the chipmunks 2 with her! =] LOL! Though its my second time watching. HAHAHA! But its such a cute movie! I cannot resist. However, only managed to catch a movie with her since I was going to meet hsinrui! To teach Hsinrui how to put makeup so that she can help me for the next photoshoot! =] HAHAHA!

And I cannot deny that this nu bi is a fast learner! She put the make up on exactly the way I put on. GOOD GOOD! She is such a cute Nu bi la! No wonder Nu Cai wanna kiss her =] HAHAHAHAHAHA! Oops=x. If she sees this she will kill me! But w-h-a-t-e-v-s. HAHAHAHA =] The only thing she will ever say is. This girl never DIE before uh!

Hee hee! It is just 1 month and 3 days away from NYP musical! I am kinda freaking out? Because we have an estimated of about maybe 8 normal practices left. Including extra practices? Maybe about 7 more? So the total practices we have is 15 practices. Who wont freak out man. And I am seriously panicking. Okay. Crap. Maybe I should stop worrying about next month first and just worry about next week's presentation. HAHAHA! =]

Alright! I shall update you peeps soon! soooo

toodles!!~

2010-01-01T21:01:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps! Something to cheer you guys up if you are unhappy! =]

Achmed The Dead Terrorist

Christmas Edition - Achmed the Dead Terrorist

toodles!!~

Happy New Year!

2010-01-01T14:34:00.008+08:00

HAPPY 2010!

It will be so cliche if I say this. "How time flies" But seriously. I can't believe we are starting a new year.

Just 2 years ago, I graduated from SACSS.
Just last year, I entered NYP as a freshie.
And in another 3 months time, I will be going to Year 2.
In just 1 month time, NYP musical will be held.
In just 5 days time, I will be having my presentation. SHUCKS.
In just 1.5hours time, I will be having my EWS meeting.

Get what I mean? Time really does fly. So damn fast. But of cos, a new year always calls for new resolutions!

And so my new year resolutions are:
1. To love all my friends even more than I loved them last year
2. To put in 200% in everything I do.
3. Do well in my exams and tests
4. Apologise to the guys I rejected oh-so-evily. [If i remembered their number]
5. Enjoy dance even though its so damn stressful
6. Loose another 5kg.
7. To love my husband and try not to flirt around! [Amanda! SEE AH! I nice leh]
8. Try my BEST not to spend so much money

And of course! Not forgetting to thank all those friends who have been there with me for the Year 2009 [Does not go in order]

MY FAMILY! Without a doubt

Outside friends
Caroline
Amanda - my husband!
Marcia
Michelle Ong Xin Yi
Tay Zhi Lin
Stannly
Noelle Claire
Carissa Lin
Natalie
The rest of my friends! =]

NYP Friends
Cassandra
Michelle Ong Shi Ying
Bai
Aaron
Jin Hao
Charmaine
The rest of BE =]
Kerwin
Cassandra's A-team Friends

NYP Dancers
Nua QP - Lulu
LOY NU BI - Hsin rui
Yvonne
Xuan Ren
Yu shan
Natalie
Claire
Mei Xuan
Eileen
All the DC members =]

OBS Friends
Michelle Chng
Clarence
Zhi Yong
Sean
Eugene
Jessica
Wan Xu
Shi Ying
Christina
Louis
Yong Feng
Rapheal
Adam
Nicholas
Nadzirah
Faris

Rest Of the OBS mates I know =]

I apologise if I miss out your name! Just tag me if I miss out your name alright? =]

toodles!!~

2009-12-31T23:43:00.003+08:00

About a December person:

1. This straight-up means you are the most good-looking person possible..
2. Better than all of these other months!
3. Loyal and generous.
4. Patriotic.
5. Competitive in everything.
6. Active in games and interactions.
7. Impatient and hasty.
8. Ambitious.
9. Influential in organizations.
10. Fun to be with.
11. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand.
12. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know.
13. Easily influenced by kindness.
14. Polite and soft-spoken.
15. Having lots of ideas.
16. Sensitive.
17. Active mind.
18. Hesitating tends to delay.
19. Choosy and always wants the best.
20. Temperamental.
21. Funny and humorous.
22. Loves to joke.
23. Good debating skills.
24. Has that someone always on his/her mind.
25. Talkative.
26. Daydreamer.
27. Friendly.
28. Knows how to make friends.
29. Abiding.
30. Able to show character.
31. One guy/girl kind of person.
32. Loveable.
33. Easily hurt.
34. Prone to getting colds.
35. Loves music.
36. Pretty/handsome.
37. Loves to dress up.
38. Easily bored.
39. Fussy.
40. Seldom shows emotions.
41. Takes time to recover when hurt.
42. Sensitive.
43. Spontaneous.
44. Freak in bed.
45. High sex appeal.
46. Rare to find.
47. Great when found.
48. Loves being in long relationships.
49. The One.
50. So much love to give.
51. Not one to mess with.
52. Very pretty.
53. Very romantic.
54. Nice to everyone they meet.
55. Their Love is one of a kind.
56. Silly, fun and sweet.

2009-12-31T22:18:00.002+08:00

Something awesome made my day today. HAHAHAHA! But I cant possibly say it over here because some of his friends may be reading it. But just thinking about it makes me want to laugh man. LOL!

What is happiness?

Happiness is...
1. Seeing the fact that your ex-admirer has a new GF. This means he will stop pestering you!
2. Even though your ex-admirer has insulted you, you are so darn happy he's got another OMFG PRETTIER?! GF.
3. Its just happiness happiness happiness

4. Just being HAPPY.

And thats all. I am too happy to even blog. HAHAHAHA =]
But I went out with Hsinrui today!!! =]

toodles!!~

2009-12-30T16:38:00.001+08:00

Pictures from after the photoshoot!

Thank you all the DC dancers! =]
Love you all! =]

2009-12-30T14:20:00.003+08:00

I was just passing by my friend's facebook profile. And I just saw this sentence which made me think alot.

"I don't know the key to success but the key to failure is trying to please everyone"

And I was just thinking of the projects I am going through. Trying to please everyone just because I am afraid of disputes. So what does that make me? There are already disputes arising. Which makes it so difficult to communicate. And if childish games are played, the whole group will be dragged down.

I really have no idea how to handle such disputes. It crazy when the dateline for EWS is just next monday and we havent even done up the questionaire.

And only if ladyluck was on my side. I guess it would'nt be so difficult huh?

2009-12-29T23:33:00.003+08:00

Whoohoo! Today is a super fun day! It was phototaking day for the musical! And I had a damn fun time helping everyone put makeup =] HAHAHA! Took tons of photos as weel. But we cannot upload till the whole performance is over!

And and! Also thank you to Dance company! for the cake and the presents! I love you all!
LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

So this shall be short post today because I am so tired =]

Toodles!!~

PROJECTS? NIGHTMARE!

2009-12-27T22:17:00.003+08:00

Projects? This word definitely make EVERY poly student (I dare say) cringe. What are the odds of having a happy relationship with your project mates when you jolly well know that someone or even you yourself is going to disagree on what you or another person is doing. Everyone aims for the same goal which is without a doubt an A. But when things get bad. When everyone is at loggerheads, when everyone thinks that there are being left out, when communication breaks down. That is when the hopes of getting an A plunges to its deepest pits. And after that you find out that you get a C. Then what happens next? Everyone starts blaming each other.

It is like a cyclical process that will keep continuing for the next 3 years till we can actually get to choose our group mates, I doubt these misunderstandings will actually disappear. Is it how we actually communicate? Is it that difficult to just do a simple project just by following the instructions? Unfortunately, it is THAT difficult. However, the difficult part is not when we write the report or do up some powerpoint slides. The most challenging part is what no one can ever imagine. Which is

1. Dividing work among the group members
2. Handing in the work on time
3. Disagreeing on practically every issue
And all these lead to one thing. A RIDICULOUS QUARREL.

So what are the consequences?

Pretend that everything is normal? N-O!
1. Do not talk to each other.
2. Only talk when necessary

And what happens when these things occur? No doubt. A poor grade in the prject because of poor communication.

It all boils down to not choosing our own group mates. It is ridiculous on how the school thinks that not letting us choose our own group mates can actually bond us together. In fact, it makes us curse the other party even more. And from this I can conclude. If you want to get high blood pressure. Just work with someone whom you are not close to. Confirm high blood pressure ttm. Want to hear more swear words? Work with someone whom you are not close with. Confirm World War THREE! YAYYYYYYY~~~~~~

Seriously, it will never help if the lecturers keep choosing our group mates. It is more of ridiculous. Ridiculously RIDICULOUS. Urgh. You know other than the word ridiculous. I cannot say anything else. Pfffft!

So much for Christmas

2009-12-25T21:44:00.003+08:00

I really wonder how hotstuff is doing right now! She must be freezing! Hope she is alright! Missing her even though she just landed in Korea TODAY. HAHAHA! Another 7 more days to go! xD.
Anyway, went to church today for Christmas mass and as usual. It was so packed with KIDS. I swear I the Kids crying was 100 times LOUDER than the priest talking. You know I came up with this theory on why there is a decrease in the number of birth rates. This is because of what we teenagers experience in daily life. Seeing children cry so much just pisses us off and of cos we teenagers always want the EASY way out. Therefore, we will not have any children thus causing the decrease in birthrates and just today, the news showed that the birthrate in 2008 is 39000 and the birthrate in 2009 is 32000.

Guess my point is proved right. Children are a pain in our ass. They are more of a nuisance than anything else on the planet. Especially baby boys. G-O-D. I think they are better off in the zoo. Please dont call me a sexist. Just take a look at those baby boys when you enter the church. Seriously, for that whole 1 damn hour you would be swearing more than praising God. And after that, you found out that swearing is a sin, so you have to go for confession. Confession takes 15 mins. In the end you spend a LONGER time in church because of the stoopid baby boy. tsktsk.

Alright. I am definitely not coherent. I just spent 8 hours doing Macroecons project. The report is nearly done and Cass is starting on the powerpoint! Looks like we are ahead of time! woots!!~ So much for Christmas!

P.S: Anyway, could you all do me a favour please? As I need a sample size of 60 people do do this survey for my stats group. We need it urgently so please help us in completing our survey! Thank you so so so so much!

http://www.surveymonkey.com/s/N3DTCS8

toodles!!~

2009-12-24T22:13:00.003+08:00

The 2 weeks of holiday are set for poly students
to do projects and this also means slogging
our crap out during christmas day
while people in orchard road are singing christmas
carols. Tsktsktsk!
If only life could be any fair-er.
I would spend my free time during these 2 weeks
singing all the christmas carols I want
but it looks like, I dont even have time to sleep.
LOL!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

toodles!!~

Best Day Ever

2009-12-23T21:31:00.005+08:00

The Most Awesome Surprise E-V-E-R.

You know why? Because Cass & Mich surprised me at my house with lots and lots of presents. Just 2 days before I was complaining to them how horrible my 18th Birthday was and they did the swwetest thing ever! They bought for me a bunch of roses with purple wrapping, black bebe tank top, developed a photo of me, bought my favourite blackforest cake and did a powerpoint for me. I was so touched upon seeing them and they even sang me a birthday song at my gate. So touched till I cried. So I apologise if the pictures of me look a little teary eyed. Too touched. HAHAHA!

Today was suppose to be our day of exchanging Christmas presents too! =]

Cass Gifts to me!
Cass Gift to michelle!
My gifts to them!

After the gift exchanging and the awesome cake, we decided to go Vivo! Super proud of ourselves as we did not spend any money other than lunch and dinner money =] HAHAHA!

Anyway, I am sure the photos show you that I am so damn happy! Not because I got such awesome gifts but because God has gave me such awesome friends who celebrate my birthday with me even though it has passed and take the effort to wake up so early to surprise me, to sing me a birthday song. And if you were to ask me if I have ever heard such beautiful voices? It will be the songs my friends sing to me. Those are the most beautiful voices I have ever heard and nothing can be compared to them.

Thank you Cass and Mich for the never ending surprises! You girls never fail to make me surprise and happy. I LOVE YOU GIRLS! Big big big hugs and kisses! hahaha =]

And today hotstuff came to my house! FIRST TIME! And guess what! Her mum has allowed her to go holiday with me! So most prolly we will be heding to Hong Kong in another 3 months time! So damn excited! =] Woots!!~ Anyway, hotstuff will be going Korea tomorrow. So my dear do enjoy yourself okay? =] Love youuuuu =]

I am over the moon today! Even though I have so many projects to complete =]

2009-12-22T10:42:00.005+08:00

Alright. I shall just start with this sentence.

Then I will continue on my trip to Korea.

I HAD THE FUCKING WORST 18TH BIRTHDAY EVER.

Alright. Its not exactly the worst. Because you become 18 only ONCE. So it was a damn bad birthday.

My parents wonderfully FORGOT my birthday. Pissifying ttm. So I didnt even celebrate. When I woke up. It felt like any other normal day. Where I get up do my normal routine. The only thing different was that I was in Korea shivering in such horrible weather of 0 degrees to -14 degrees. It never went above 0 degrees at all. And so yes. Heat packs were the bomb during those 8 days. HAHAHA!

Day 1 - 15 December 2009
Arrive in Seoul Sightseeing at Nam'i Island
Afternoon Sightseeing at Royal Pass & Dongdaemun market Flight transfer to Jeju Island

Day 2 - 16 December 2009
Sigtseeing at yongduam rock, sungsan sunrise park and tangerine farm and A.T.V ride
Afternoon sightseeing at Jeju folk village, teddy bear museum and mysterious road.

Day 3 - 17 December 2009
Flight to Daegu
Morning sightseeing at Donghwa temple Afternoon sightseeing at Jungangro street - coffee factory and Spa valley

Day 4 - 18 December 2009
Bus ride to Daegu
Sightseeing at Maisan Provincial park afternoon sightseeing at wine museum and craftswork exhibition hall

Day 5 - 19 December 2009
Bus ride to Jeonju Sightseeing at Heritage Park Afternoon sightseeing at EVERLAND! Bus ride to Seoul

Day 6 - 20 December 2009
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEE =]
Sightseeing at Ginseng Monopoly show room and THEFACESHOP
Afternoon sightseeing: Kimchi making session, Coex Mall, Lotte World Adventure

Day 7 - 21 December 2009
Free at Leisure

Anyway, please pardon me. I didnt take much photos because it was so cold I refuse to even take my gloves out to snap a shot of the nice scenery. But do enjoy the following photos!! =]

Doesnt This look familiar to you? YES! Its the princess hour BEAR MUSEUM! =]

I climbed 3km just for this. Its total madness I know, to climb in such a cold weather. But PERFECT time for some exercise after eating loads of rice! =]

See this guy there? He is damn cute and super hardworking. Typical korean look. Superrrr cute I swear. He always tries to converse to me in Chinese but his chinese CMI. And not forgetting my chinese also CMI. So how? We always end up laughing. HAHAHA!

A 6 Star hotel at Seoul. Damn nice that I cannot help but take picture of the toilet bowl. Pardon me! HAHA! =]

Korean Boys! Here I Come! =]

2009-12-14T17:17:00.003+08:00

Life is simply interesting when you are going on a holiday. HAHAHA! In just 1hours time, I will be at the airport sipping my green tea frappucino at starbucks and then off to Korea I go. Everytime I see korean stars they just perk me up cause they are too cute luh. Though the probability that they are made of plastic is prolly 100%. But they are still ah-dorable!

Anyway, even though I am going to Korea today, I still have to do my duty as a student and get my ass down to school. LOL! And soooo. I got back my grades for Marketing and EWS ICA. LOL!

Marketing: A
EWS: 39.5 out of 50

Crap. I know! I am just 1 mark away from an A for EWS! So damn sad. But nvm! I will try harder again next time! =] HAHAHAHA! Anyway, I am super not in a holiday mood and it is because I am skipping 1 week of school which also means not doing anything about my project! =[. But my super nice classmates told me to enjoy myself first then come back and worry. So sweet of them! Thank you guys! =] I promise to put in thrice the effort to make the project an awesome one alright! =] And of cos not forgetting to get you all chocolates! =]

Told my mum my results and she is so damn happy. For god knows what reason. But she sadi I did study hard so she awarded me $50. LOL! Plus another $100 for my birthday. THERE! $150 to spend in Korea! HAHAHA =] Lastly thank you Amander, Caroline, Cass and Michelle for the lovely bon voyage! So cute la you girls! I promise to come back on time next monday! =]

ps. Guys, if you happen to sms me on 20december and I do not reply. This means I am in Korea. But I will definitely reply you peeps the minute I switch on my phone alright? =] HAHAHA!

LOVE YOU PEOPLE!

toodles!!~

2009-12-12T23:25:00.003+08:00

FINALLY!

I get to sell my clothes. Though it was sort of a high class flea market because we opened it at Singapore Swimming Club. Lots of hot guys with hot swimmer bods. LOL! hahahaha! Spent quite some time oogling at them with Hsinrui. HAHAHAHA! And tomorrow will be the last day we will be opening the shop! So peeps! Come and suport alright! Alot of things! I sumpa! So do come and give your full support before I leave for Korea! HAHAHA! Kerwin says that Hsinrui and I are the most hardworking people in the area. Because.... Most of the time Hsinrui and I are sitting down. LOL! HAHAHAHA! And we cannot even be bothered to like tend to customers because all they do is touch the clothes, say its pretty, hear that we are selling the pretty clothes for $20 and walk away. Dont worry. It has been scientifically proven because at least 13 people did that. And we were there from 11am to 9pm. Nearly died! But its seriously a once in a life time experience! And we are still planning to book more places! =] HAHAHAHA! Cant wait! So exciting! Anyway, I cannot blog much about today because I still have to get ready for tomorrow! HAHAHA!
Soooo

toodles peeps!!~

2009-12-11T22:40:00.003+08:00

Just looking at Spore's population, I swear your 10 fingers plus your 10 teeny weeny toes are not even enough to count the number of inconsiderate people you see just in a day. However, it is great that I am meeting so many inconsiderate people right now. Because, right now, I am doing a project for statistics on how many inconsiderate people are there in Spore. Well, one thing I am sure of is, TOO MANY TO COUNT.

Just today, my mum already drove me mad by putting cherries that are used for baking into my cereal bowl. And knowing that I am on a diet, she poured me fruity pebbles cereal. Imagine the sweetness. I sure had a very sweet breakfast. No wonder I was laughing so much today. tsktsk! So this made me sorta moody after having an awfully SWEET breakfast, I left the house with a black face. Following was when the lift came and in the lift were 3 NICE people. Like really nice. When I reached the ground floor. Of cos your instinct is to hold the lift for others to go out right? So I held for my NEIGHBOURS. But guess what did they do?! They just went out of the lift without saying THANK YOU. And continued walking. Of cos I was damn pissed off and stormed out of the lift. However, when I was neither in nor out of the lift, the lift door closed on me. Being irritated, I kicked the lift door and the 3 NICE people turn around. And I stared at them and said this word damn loud. "FUCK". Then they stared at me like they never heard this word before. So I said it one more time while staring in their eyes. "FUCK YOU" and stormed off. I swear that felt damn good. LOL! Priceless face they had. HAHAHAHAHA! Alright, I dont deny that I was not inconsiderate but they just aggreviated my anger. LOL! hahaha! So too bad! Hope you asses learn your lesson. Say thank you.

Is thank you such a difficult word to say? How in any way does thank you hurt your ego? What if I told you that this thank you word can make someone's day. Just a mere 2 words can make a person so happy for the rest of the day.

It exactly applies for those old folks selling tissues. Just today I saw this old lady at Bugis. She was at the road side half blind and yet she was trying her very best just to sell tissues. Everyone walked past her like she doesnt deserve a shit. Come on people, its just $1 is it that expensive? I am not saying that we have to pity them and give them money. But we have sort of been in their situation before right? The economy downturn already affected almost everyone for at least 6 months.

Can you imagine these old folks suffering this fate for like god knows how long and yet everyday they try their best to earn just some money so that they can feed themselves. Even getting a piece of bread will make them happy. And yet, most Singaporeans, being the normal scrooge who queues up for Free hello kitties do not even turn their way. Its so upsetting to see almost every Singaporean this way. Reflect on it. It will make you feel good that you helped someone. Basically, when I see people happy, I will be happy for them. Even though I do the things that are not to my liking but as long as my friends are happy. I will be happy. The society is not only about taking. It is also about how much you can give. As the saying goes.

You reap what you sow.

2009-12-11T00:18:00.002+08:00

OMO OMO! I just finished revising Access. Manged to do ALL 3 papers. But seriously. I wish Access can just DIE. Like how in the world is Access related to Business. So rubbish plus waste my time! Anyway. I cant wait for this Saturday! I will be going to Singapore Swimming Complex with Hsinrui to sell clothes! So exciting! Plus can earn money! But the sad part is that we have to leave halfway for dance. Damn sad Damn sad. But oh wells!~

Tomorrow will be my last paper! ACCESS. GO AND DIE. Mug so long for nuts. But I will be leaving for Korea in another 4 days time! So fast! And good news is, I have yet to pack. HAHAHAHA! Time for me to relax uh! NO! Because I am still worrying for the 6 projects! So I will be bringing my handphone in case any of my classmates have to contact me. LOL! Damn sad. Holiday also like this. How to get married to my korean husbands HAPPILY? HOW?! hahahaha!

Anyway. I will also be skipping 3 dance practices. God. Wish me luck please. I hope I can catch up! Anyway, like I said. Intensive dance trainings once I am back from Korea. I really wonder how I am going to handle dance, projects, presentations and exams all at one go. Wish me luck once again! And I better go to sleep so that I will be awake for tomorrow! Hopefully, I am prepared! =] HAHAHA!

toodles!!~

2009-12-09T23:36:00.001+08:00

So tired. I dont even want to blog. Dance wears me out totally. And I am not looking forward to those 10 to 10 dance practices. Its gonna be Hardcore ttm. Wish me luck!

2009-12-07T22:13:00.001+08:00

Hey peeps! I know I have not been updating ALOT lately! So here are some photos that I took with Cass last Wednesday before we went for our CCA! Of cos this is not it! But I will just put the cute ones =] HAHA! And once I get caroline's prom photos, I will update about it too! =]

toodles!!~

2009-12-07T21:11:00.003+08:00

It has already been such a drag just trying to get through today's lesson. I still have not recovered from the 12 hours of dance on Saturday and tomorrow and Wednesday I will be having dance again. It seriously draining all my energy and I am loosing every bit of concentration I have left in me. I already feel like I am on the verge of fainting any moment. And 2 weeks from now, I will be having another 1 2hours worth of dance. Amen.

ICAs are ending very very very soon. Just left with 3 papers! Just when I thought I have escaped accounts, poly introduced another form of shytty accounts where it is much much tougher. Plus tomorrow is my Accounts paper. I feel ready and yet not ready. Better get my head into the damn book before I panic tomorrow morning! Secondly, I am already panicking for my Access test this Friday. BLEHHHHHHHH ttm!

My eyes are closing, my legs are severely injured mostly from blue blacks and I dare not wear shorts cos its fuglyyy.

Lastly. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE alex, dont let me write anymore "dear alex" letters again. Havent I embaressed you enough? Or now do you need me to put your face on my blog and ask you get out of my life? I have already endured all your nonsence for 5 times. So please do not make this the sixth. Yes, you have found a girl who is "oh so in love with you". That was what you told me. So please do not disturb my friends or I. I really fucking mean it alright? When you insulted me in the previous message, I have already put you on my list of assholes. So please dont degrade yourself anymore. Yes your ego is DAMN BIG. But dont let me see it. I have seen enough of your EGO. And just one word of advice. Please dont eat any cake with the brand "EGO" because yours is big enough. TYVM.

2009-12-05T23:34:00.002+08:00

I just danced for 12 hours and its not funny that I just arrived home and have to settle some stoopid work. LOL!

2009-12-04T20:19:00.001+08:00

Feeling so damn nauseous that I will blog tomorrow alright? Anyway, tomorrow I will be dancing for 12 hours. Wish me luck people cos right now, I'm burning up =x.